Chapter 1 - To the Cold
"I cannot ignore the feelings that envelope me. I must go to the cold. I must go to my destiny."
The decision to go to Russia, almost isn't a decision that I took. Every feeling that I have suggests that I have to go. I need to go. Yet, the reasons for these feelings remain unseen and therefore, cannot be understood. For as long as I can remember, i have had these feelings, seen photo's and felt, almost known, that I have visited places first hand.
So while these feelings remain to be understood, the only logical option is to explore them further. And to explore the source and subject of these feelings is that logical option.
"Before one can find ones self, one must first lose ones self."
Russia, or more specifically, Moscow is completely different to anywhere I have ever been before. In my opinion, it is the most intriguing place in all of the world. There is a sharp contrast in opinions of Moscow from the many people that have visited there. There are some that visit and vow never to return to Moscow or Russia again. ANd there are those that visit, and find leaving the most difficult thing they have ever had to do.
Reading these opinions tends to leave me less informed than when I started reading them. But rest assured I will have no end to opportunities to voice (or write) my opinions of Moscow once I get there. And lucky listeners (readers) of Radio Krasnaya will have the luxurious advantage of knowing my opinion. Which will always be in contrast to at least someone elses.
2 comments:
I always think about if the entity that we call "destiny" really exists. And if it does, can we change it? In fact,nobody knows, we can only guess and imagine. Sometimes it scares a lot, when you think that your life's already kind of programmed and the highest powers can rule you, your future and all your life. It makes me feel that everyone of us lives in an exclusive circle, and there is no freedom of choice at all, and even if we make some moves to change it - it's anyway how your destiny works and anyway you cant break the rules that control you. But at least we have this strong illusion that we can do something to avoid destiny. However if your destiny is brilliant and promises happiness and fabulous future, why not to follow it?:)
Coldland Princess.
Coldland Princess.
I too often think about the extent to which our lives are controlled by destiny. As I mentioned in my post, I feel like it has been pre-determined that i must visit Russia. But I also feel that it is well within my control to choose that I will or won't visit. As with many other decisions that we have to make, both life changing or seemingly insignificant.
But in terms of my happy and fabulous future, I would consider it best to follow my predetermined path, and visit Russia. :) :)
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